Firmly Rooted

This Monday there was not a 7 minute standoff success story as I shared last Monday. In fact, after 20 minutes I remained the only one standing.

After giving Wil silent time to process, there was not a hint of progress. I tried being silly. Wil loves being silly, so the tug to join my silliness is often hard for him to resist. All I got in response was a flat-toned, “Mom, stop.”

I finally called it — even though Wil already had — he’d stay home.

I never call “calling it” a loss. It’s hard, yes. It’s frustrating, yes. It can put me, his sisters, his therapists, his friends — whoever we have a commitment with — at an inconvenience. The time they have set aside has now been dashed. Gratefully, most who know Wil, know that he makes most of his commitments, but sometimes he gets deeply stuck. And when that happens, it’s not going to happen.

The winning side is that Wil and I both learn through times like this. Even if it doesn’t show at the time.

His is a quiet learning; growing under the surface like the roots of a tree. Stretching, reaching, drawing upon water, all underground. Then one day, these roots now strong, bust through the surface breaking a sidewalk slab in two, seemingly out of nowhere.

I create the environment for growth. Figuring out how much water, how much sun. Last week I got it right. This week I overdrenched. He dug in deeper underground. There’s no exact formula. You go by experience, by hunches, by what you heard another parent try. And keep trying.

Today the roots lay dormant, but just maybe I shared a burst of sunshine or quiet rain that was needed for growth to emerge on another day.